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it seems like every girl i find to talk to is likable, datable, and lovable. but yet none of them can ever be close. or let alone single...i've tried being bisexual doesnt seem to be my thing. and i live alone... work and now a college student, but still i dont feel right in my place or where i belong. i just had a convo with a girl im dearly in love with....

she wakes up and says hi nick and i ask her how shes doin nd stuff asking her will i ever get a 2nd chance (the 1st chance was a mutal thing cause i had troubles getting online and being able to talk to her cause of moving so much and having bad life going on) but its all better now. but not much better when i happen to be alone. i love her so damn much its not even funny any more... i told her i'd take a stab in my heart a bullet for her and die for her... and yet it doesnt seem 2 matter...

i told her that i am just so beat up about not being able to find any one that i feel that i just wanna go in the army and go straight to the war and feel like some where i belong for once....