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Compare yourself to me. I got a D- on my first math test. so i ditched the second half of the class because i was so pissed off at myself. i really thought i knew how to do the ******** problems, i guess not. C'est la vie indeed. so after banging my head against the steering wheel several times and calling myself a stupid cow-like i do- i drove my fat, stupid self to the mall where i stole a pair of lovely new gauntlets and i bought a gothic summer dress for 11 dollars. it is obvious how ******** up i was feeling at the time. and proceeding that, i went to claire's and received a little hole in the upper lobe of my right ear. it's hard to put my hair behind there now. but failing that test that i enjoyed taking made me realize that i had to change, even the slightest. oh, and i went into simply kids and bought that manga i wanted, "Godchild". and i read it when i got home after lying to my mother when she almost immediatley noticed the little gold bolt on my upper ear lobe by telling her that class got out early so i went to the mall and got the piercing. the manga kicks a** and i look forward to the next volume. Do you ever pound your head against hard surfaces to punish yourself, Tina? i've always wanted brain damage, which is my 'excuse' for doing the things that i do. Do you want to be like me, Tina? be happy that you have the capability to be a smart and normal person. don't deny it, you know you could be normal if you wished to change. and if you didn't know that, i just told you. you can, you just hate normal people so you don't want to be like them. that's why i like you, tina, my friend. sometimes i bang my head on walls for the smallest things, supposing if i keep banging my head, it will learn its lession and never do it again. it never works, don't try it anymore. you end up failing another test and another test. the only thing i need to do is ask somebody for help. but the truth is that i don't want help because i don't want to learn math because it's stupider than i am. so i shall fail and never get out of here. if you understand it, tina, than take it, take it everywhere and never fail a math class again. now if you will excuse me, i'm going to cry and write a poem about how weak and pathetic i am in trying to maintain control over my own brain. it is a battle that has been going on for centuries, and i am about to lose. :pirate: T_T

Another hole in the ear for you? That sounds nice.

Though seriously, you're capable of more than you think. Just as you said to me, it applies to you. Its never too late to start learning. Hell, all we have to do is pass our math, thats it. Then its over. No more math.