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Hey guys! I dressed like panda today and I looked soo cutee<3 xD
Lol but, this journal is about bullying. And this is a serious manner, I mean think of all the kids contemplating suicide right now because of bullying. And all the people who have already done it.
Well here's what I haven't gotten yet. Why they still do it when they know people are dying.
I mean I know what I'm talking about. It hurts a lot, especially when no one is helping you out, your just fighting it back on your own. Now that hurts, and people are edging them on with laughter. You just kinda sit there like what the f*ck is wrong with you.
I mean I could've taken him. I would have. You don't go around acting badass and expecting not to get beaten up.
I never understood why I'm always a target. But then I think this thing. It's not your fault.
If your bullied, it has nothing to do with you. I want to be able to tell kids that.
I mean being the one of the only minorities at my elementary school, being Asian I was short, had the lisp, but I was so innocent. And I remember two boys would just bully me. They called me an Asian, one threatened to kill me, and the other was just like a little side kick. And I was just like. I don't get it. I tried to be friends, but....
Now being this age and still being bullied. I think it has to do wit cliques.
I'm not friends with many people. Be what it may. I would rather have friends I know love me, and other people. Then have ones that trash others.
It's that thought. Oh I'm better than you. No.
God, that big guy put everyone on this earth. No one he put here he said you are worthless, everyone has their purpose.
I want mine to be helping people be stronger. This year taught me a lot. And here are some.
-You have a purpose.
-Standing up for someone feels really good.
-Friends aren't forever, no matter how close you seem.
-Old friends are still the best.
-Nothing get's done till you step up.
And there are so many more. But guys, if I'm getting through what I'm going through you can too. We have a purpose in this life, and you are important. No matter what they say to you.
I'll be here to talk, always. I'd love to listen to your problems.
If they use words as weapons, ignore them. Yeah, I guarantee the words will burn a little, and you'll have the urge to do something. But just ignore. That way you aren't edging it on.
Or...:3 if you have a really smart butt comment soo say it to them. I'll give you my examples.
The person currently bullying me. Yep I'll even give you the name. Kamani Thompson. Is really mean and really annoying. He constantly talks about sex, and hates people who retaliate against him. Hence why he hates me.Anyway...he calls everyone a ni**a because he's black and feels it's fair.
He was talking in class and wouldn't be quiet. He kept bothering a kid which made it louder.
"Kamani, shut up."
"Shut up ni**a"
"Sorry, I'm Asian, are you colorblind?"
The room was like ohh and there was laughing. He just glared at me.
He kept throwing things at me, and I got him in trouble.
-Today-
"Why does that kid think he's such a badass?"
"You don't know what a badass is ni**a!" and since he didn't say it at me. (He never looks at me when he insults me back)
"Kamani, I dare you to say that to my face."
"Shut up, I don't gotta say nothing to you ni**a."
"Are you afraid too?" I teased and he swung his head around got in my face and said.
"You a f**kin' dumbass ni**a, you don't know what a badass is so shut the f**k up b***h." and then his friends were laughing, except the guy, who is his friend told him to stop being rude. but that was it.
"Calling me the dumbass when all you can do it curse and use improper grammar." I said in this really sweet sick voice. And he just glared at me, and then the sub yelled at him<3
Well....other than that minor error to my day it was nice.
We performed at the middle school and I dressed like a panda<3
Tiffany