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I'm not really worried about a word count, just so you know. With that in mind.. c:

Do I feel better? Only marginally. Its not half as bad as it may sound like, but it isn't something I often do. "Speak of something personal" I think I personally HATE answering that question, so there! I've been stuck on a third shift sleeping pattern for years now. I definitely hate it! Wouldn't really recommend it to anyone. It isn't easy watching the moon rise when you wake up, though it is pretty interesting from time to time.

Lately though I've been getting less and less motivation, energy and otherwise. It's the slump of the century, but I figure sooner or later I'm bound to break it and things shall be as usual. I hope. There is not much of a chance for change unless I step up and do it. Drifting by on this past job has been pretty ugly. Its not the worst place out there, but I certainly won't say to stay there for the long term. Rottburger, or McDonalds and all that. Ugh. It's sucking away the life out of me. I could swear its got to be the food!

That's been a huge source of stress for me, and I simply can't help but hate how it has such an impact on things. Lately the lack of work has been just a little much, from working a day a week, to simply being "on call" Mostly due to simply staying there long enough to earn more money than the rest. Work ethic aside, it's not so bad getting to enjoy the perks. Though really, I'd stay away from anything that sits for awhile. It isn't healthy at all. Hence my little nickname for the place, as come up by a personal friend of mine.

School sounds like a much better opportunity for me anyway! I've an eye on a shiny degree, it's just that GIANT first step that I loathe to make. Getting started is always the hard part for me, but once I'm there, I'm in it! I've gotta keep looking up and it helps to have a lovely array of friends and family to hep me out when I need it!

I could go and name names now, but I'd rather keep it simple, as they know I mean. I dedicate a lot of energy and thought to how each and every one of them can be safe and taken care of at least. Even if I'm not always around, I definitely try to put a heart full of energy and love into protection. Maybe it's a little strange to some people, but I definitely believe in energy and thought playing a powerful role in my life and surroundings. Infusing them into my words and the rest just seems to flow naturally at times, while others just cause me such a hard manner of thought to even plod along.

But on the subject of what come naturally, it's a bit random but I do seem to have a bit of a thing fashion lately. I can blame all my working on avatars, but I dunno, lately I've wanted to improve a lot of my looks, kind of sucks to be wearing the same thing every week or two. After hearing from my mother that I wouldn't get many clothes this year for Christmas, it made me a little bit sad, but things have been a little bit strapped for the years. Economy hurts! But I do have enough thankfully to make it through and come up with quite a few gifts for the people I know!

I will say I've gotten a few of my presents already.. I haven't opened them yet but I can only bet they've got something cool in them. It's not entirely the present either, I think I like seeing the name tags on it the most. To me, from.. you! The people that loooooove meeee! Seriously, I'll shake the internet until you tell me that! Or something epic!

I've got a few more thoughts, but you might just have to find out what they are later! It's a little bit too much to keep thinking... but I bet I'll come up with some rant sooner or later. Just wait!