The big problem that wrecked our relationship: (I say relationship but I mean the friendship relationship. This was when the ex and I took a break, still close, but no "dating" title.) So, I got close to a mutual friend of ours, these two argued some. I refused to choose sides, played the peace keeper. Turned out the mutual friend told my ex something about me I probably should've told her much sooner, and that bit me pretty hard. I told the mutual friend out of trust and had learned to regret it, so much. It's not that I planned to never tell her myself, I just feared judgement. If not for my abusive, bad habits step dad's history I'm confident this would've been where my trust issues really made their way into my life.
So this amazing friend (the ex) and I survived a relationship, a break up, being a couple again after a month or two, finally another (but more calm and less scary) break up, this mutual friend's games, the ex hating me - and yet still talking to me, finally whatever we are today which almost feels like stronger than ever. Which is lately, me hearing about her life and her mine, our jokes. I guess the oddest part is I hear from her a lot more when her boyfriend is back home visiting his family and friends. Or when I need someone. So it's contact in small doses, which isn't too bad. The guy gets jealous as well. So I think that may play a part in why we don't talk every day. Finally, I'm not jealous when it comes to her.
Guess it goes to show that no matter how shaky of a history you have with a person, they can really surprise you with how they're there for you in a heartbeat. Even after all these years. Last year was kinda tough on me, and I was really surprised they were there for me when I needed to talk. So, I'm no special exception, this can apply to anybody. Just cause time has passed and nobody has said a word in so long, this person and a few others are more than happy to reconnect.
I'm guessing this is just a reminder to myself sometimes that I feel lucky that I can talk to this girl. Plus it helps when I think: "9 out of 10 times all I get when it comes to female friends is irrational jealousy" xD Just shows me this isn't the case, it's more in my head than I probably give it credit for.
