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"Even in the deepest of darkness, there is always a light," Not in my case. At least not anymore. My light died out Sepetember 21, 2005, along with my hope, joy, and sense of purppose. Even if I stand in the brightest room in the universe it is all the same as a room of all black. Before, I used to laugh and smile, I still do but not for real. They are only hollow attempts to mislead people into thinking I am truely happy. If only I could convince myself as well. But whats the use? To smile is to be even more sorrowful than before immediatly after that smile fades. What happened to the happy person I was just last year? With a blink of an eye, a crash on the floor, and a scream from my mouth, it was all gone. The taste onmy lips that used to be the sweet sugar of reality soon changed into the bitter poison of memory;testing me on how long I would allow it to taunt me.