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i remember when i was ten years old

being told that i would graduate in 2017

and i thought to myself, 'well, i don't have to worry about it for a while, that's such a long ways away'

now 2017 is just under three months away

now it's almost here and i'm paralyzed with fear

the realization that the future is so immense and uncertain and so near

the realization that perhaps i'm not quite like the others

yes, everyone says that, 'it's good to be different' but i'm a bad kind of different

the kind that fails to fit in anywhere

because my pieces were broken in transit and i never learned how to fix them

and my wires are immeasurably tangled

but i am good, right?

to me i am, but to everyone else i am not

they don't understand me

i am different

not their kind of different

and to them it is bad