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All by myself.....
I barely talk to anyone anymore irl. My dad is barely around and when he is I mostly get in trouble with him. Sometimes he points out facts that I try to forget. And recently he's been trying to find a new woman (my parents r divorced and my mom already found another man. ) I try to keep myself happy buy using material goods but it only lasts for so long. So thats why I turn to the internet. It has things, things that interest me. Ive also been using drawings as an escape to. Drawing helps me keep my mind off most things. I just hope I dont end up like those insane peoples on tv with the white jackets. xp Ive also tryed using cooking as another escape. IDK why but cook makes me feel kinda good,but I dont eat much anyway. I fact I went one day without eating once. I ended up barfing at one point but it was still ok that I didnt eat. I wish I could live with my mom but she has a baby and I dont do well around babies plus the house she lives in use to have dogs crowding around. I dont do well around the facts that dogs used that house like a big toilet. Oh well...atleast Ill have something to do once school starts. Ill just sit by the ROTC building by myself after school and read or think or something.
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