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My grandma on my moms side passed away recently. I regret the fact that I didnt visit her much. And that when I did I was more busy playing my gameboy SP or my ninetendo DS. I could have atleast talked to her more than hi and bye. I could have tryed to smile at her, even if it hard for me to smile now days. I could have spoken to her even though she mostly knew Korean and knew some English too. All of those things I could have done for her before she past away but I didnt. I regret it too now that its to late. Nowdays I worry that Im losing my emotions its hard for me to be happy anymore I dont know why. Of course right now Im sad cause of what happened. Maybe to fact that Im by myself most of the time is changing the way I feel. Maybe because of that I push people away,but at the same time I want someone to be there. I may not post on the 7th I'll be busy most of the day.