No this is not a story... I'm finishing my other as we speak, but I wanted to get something off my chest...
This is supposed to be the happiest time for me
all that I've waited my whole life has come to be
But I've seen it before...
like I'll see it again...
It will all head out the door,
or was the last time the end?
Will I keep what I've worker so hard for?
Will it be riped away?
Will it run when I question what I'm for?
I sit waiting for the day...
I seem to think it wont come but
It still suxs to be so insecure about my self
when all of them keep telling me other wise
I know it's different between all us guyz
I know that I'm no longer upon my self....
when will these haunting feelings stop!?
I want help, I've gotten help, I've needed help. I've refused help...
what's so wrong with me?
why do I feel the way I do?
Why can't I stop in certain things I do!?
why won't it go away?
I want to be taken away....
well there you go... don't get to rilled up about it... I just can't help with my self sometimes.......
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