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Today wasn't as bad as yesterday. Depression hasn't struck as bad as yesterday. Im getting better at being myself in some situations. I like having the mood where its like, "I'll act how i want to act like, and if u dont like it, then, thats ur problem. Im not here to change for you. HA!" I think i'll keep practicing. A little late in the game (high school i mean) but i guess it now or never. I'm beging to see the kids i used to call friends are becoming more of a freind again. I mean, have u ever had that feeling coming back from the summer and seeing those "friends" again who are like, "Oh hey" and walks away. Just because u havent talked in a while, doesnt exactly mean u arent buddies anymore right? Wellp, i hate these kids at school. But, to be my social self, or try to be, i buck up and stick with it. Its coming along... slowly.... yeaaahhhh.. stare Oh well.

Anyway, today was good. Things didnt seem as crappy like yesterday. I came into my Calculous, meg seemed to be happier, which made me a little on the good side, i suppose... Is this what they call PMS? Whatever... im still a little shaky, so i dont think ill just give her as much attention as i did before. After that, was Latin. Blah blah blah, ok... so my day got boring from there. Chem is boring. My teacher cant speak english very well and we have a test tomarrow which, of course i havent studied for. But how hard could depicting whether or not this object is solid, liquid or gas? I hope not too hard. LoL!

I talked to my friend will today. Party tomarrow at an all girls school. Oh yeah, im phsyced. Im was pretty dam happy after i heard that. Lol. Plus, i havent picked up any alcohol in a while. Tollerance went down again. But, though i like drinking, i dont do it for comfort, and lets leave it that way. I dont want to be branded as an alcoholic. Please, that would be the worst. That or a druggy. God.... silly pot heads.

After school (seeing as my day got pritty boring), I went to the principles office to discuss my ideas on my gormet club, but, he had to leave, soooooo we once again.. rescheduald. Oy, all these ideas of me becoming a gormet Chef is becoming hard. I really need to figure out if cooking would be the right thing for me. After that i decided to drop by meg, kayla, and jenn. So, we talked, but since Meg seems to hold this grudge of me taking rides home with her, i decided ill just walk. So, i hoofed it home.

When i got home, i passed out quick on the couch listening to music. Woke up at 7:00 pm, just in time to get back to school for back to school night to sell some thigns for the rotary club. We were selling these really niffty Westfield lamps. 40 bucks each, but all hand crafted by our very own Mr. Smith (how original sweatdrop i know), a guidance counciler. All the money was for a good cause. It would go to this save a life foundation. heh, it was cool to brush up on my sales skills and persuasive speaking. At the club stand, it was me, and three other people. I gave the idea that maybe i should walk around the school holding the slips for the purchase. Low and behold it worked like a charm. heh, i was proud of myself. Sitting there yelling out "By a lamp and save a life" got boring fast. Plus the parents look at you like, what the hecks this kid doing. So what i did was i walked around, singled out parents and shoved the piece of paper in theyre face (or pretty much). I think i did a good job, raising 240 dollars plus more tonight. "Buy and a lamp. All the money raised goes to a charitable foundation known as the Save a life foundation. Hand crafted by our very own Mr. Smith, this beautiful lamp is only 40 bucks. Sanded finely to a smooth touch, and a reliable only as long as ur lightbulb lasts. If you want to see it, just head on over to the guidance office. There's a stand right outside with the trademark lamp." This was a pretty good way to do it. I tried a bunch of other approaches, but yeah, ill get better if i practice. Public speaking was always a fun thing i enjoyed.

Anyway, after seeling those to the parents, i ended up back at home, watching the Kerry vs Bush debate. Now, this is just my opinion, but i reallllly think kerry's a little bit on the oblivious side. He tends to repeat, and contradict himself over and over. I couldnt stand it. And how he has the"right" to say that BUsh is incompitant. Ah, whatever. I get a little to wild in politics sometimes. After words, i discussed it with Eric a bit. Being a d**k as usuall, he tells me i dont understand politics and because he takes AP gov't, he knows more. Wellp, once again, Screw you! lol. Im starting to dispise these kids at school. Eh, oh well. I really should start doing my SAT work. Im late on the Due date again. God dam, this procrastination problem. I ended up not doing my math HW cuz im too lazy. +_+ Argh! I better not be slipping.

And here i am, Watching Inyuyasha and typing out my glorious day. Haha, and what a dam filled day it was. yeah, im out of it like a crack adict in re-hab. Good night, and until tomarrow.

*doug funny ending theme* whee