Well, i'm a big fan of Romeo and Juliet and i figured i'd try out for the main role Juliet in our last school theatre production. Everything went perfectly well... the weather was nice... i didn't see Alec... and i feel like my soul's free when i'm acting so i was pretty confident. Then, as i was walking to the audition i wondered about Romeo... bascially who he would be and i'd have to kiss him in front of everybody! It may not seem like a big deal to anyone else... but to me it's a huge deal after all i've only been kissed once... and that was by the biggest play boy of all time! I didn't have any experience! But it'd be okay because i felt like i was master at acting... I finally got to the auditions and then i saw how many people were auditioning for Juliet's role. wow... i was nerve-racked from then on. But i got into the final three... and in the final performance for the audition i was trying my hardest. This girl also auditioning for Juliet went before me and she was sooooo good! I watched her and i was shocked to the point where i couldn't blink...
I really had no hope. As i was waiting for who got the part i watched the other auditions... all the characters were chosen but still no auditions for Romeo. Curiosity got the best of me and i went up and asked about Romeo... The drama teacher who always wore bright clothing looked at me and said "Romeo isn't having auditions... the part was chosen as a punishment for someone... so let's see... hmmm" the teacher scanned her paper. "Well Romeo is going to be played by Alec," she smiled.
My breath was sucked right out of me... WHAT??? HOW???... they soon announced who would be playing Juliet and it turned out it was that girl that went before me... i had lost the part. I couldn't even hold it against her as she was one of the most prettiest yet nicest girl i've ever met.
I dragged myself home after i found out the dark truth. At least I wouldn't have to kiss Alec i thought... who am i kidding? I liked kissing him! Everday something inside me pushed to go see the rehearsal's but i didn't... i had been offered another role in the play but i had refused. Call it stubborness but i really couldn't bring myself to act as someone other than Juliet.
When the rehearsal's were completed i went to go see the final product. I told myself that i wanted to see the acting of that girl... not to see Alec... but i couldn't convince myself...
When the play began i was blown away by Alec's acting... at one point it looked to me as if he was looking straight at me when he was talking... damn the words of that play... they're so romantic and when someone's staring at you like saying those words what else are you supposed to do except blush to the tip of your toes? When that person winks it's even harder to not to lower your eyes but i pulled through... When the balcony scene came and Romeo was kissing Juliet all i could think of was how his lips felt against mine... and i felt so ashamed... how could i think such an obscene thought?...
When it was over the audience gave the play a standing ovation... so did i... everyone really was good. As i was getting to go i saw Alec come towards me and i couldn't face him after what i was thinking about him... so i started avoiding him.
He looked really annoyed... well plan accomplished. But i had wanted to talk to him... Then i saw him walk towards Juliet and brush her hair away from her cheek... he asked her a question and she smiled widely and nodded... no it couldn't be i thought to myself. He looked straight at me and walked towards me. My legs were frozen into place and i couldn't move... he said "Hey seniorita... didja like my acting?"
I couldn't believe that after asking that other girl out... how could he come and talk to me like that. Unwillingly tears stung my eyes... Alec's gloating expression immeadiately turned upside down.
"Hey what's wrong?" He asked me worridly.
But my throat was bursting with emotion.from the sudden appearence of these tears... I shoved him away and ran home. I guess i'm just a person who wears her heart on her sleeve but i still can't explain why i was angry or why i started crying... my brothers were concerned and wouldn't stop bugging me but i just wanted to be alone... so i locked my bedroom door and stayed there. The next morning i somehow got the will to get up and go to school... but i avoided him at all costs... i don't know why but my mind would not get off from the concerned expression on Alec's face... and i spent the whole day trying to concentrate and my nights trying to forget.
 raiin.shadow · Thu Jul 13, 2006 @ 11:00pm · 3 Comments |
