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Today I'm feeling pretty decent. Slept alright last night, but woke up pretty early.
Getting some coffee this morning to start my day. Then I'm planning on making some nom noms for lunch. General Tso Chicken, Eggroll, Shrimp and Imitation Crab Meat Alfredo with angel hair pasta and vegetable medley. Wish I had some sushi too but still a lot of food. I plan on eating half my food for lunch and half for supper since the calories are gonna be high. Portion control is my friend.
I got lazy yesterday and didn't exercise, but today I'm definitely gonna exercise.

I plan on watching a bit of Ranma 1/2 and Saiki K today.
Then later I'll read some "how to use an angel" webcomic. Been a bit since I got back to it. I've been "out-of-it" lately. Just in my head...where honestly I don't need to be. Zoning out is something I do alot on purpose (making up visual stories in my head) and not on purpose (usually re-living negative past expeiences). The not on purpose zoning out is kinda bad, because it'll cause a negative mood. I don't need to go back to the dark days. I'm trying to move past all that and better my life. That or remembering embarrassing moments that I'd rather just forget. My mind likes to remind me of s**t I thought I put behind me.
Times where I was a s**t person or when people were shitty towards me.
You learn and grow from experiences and try to be a better you and also try to not end up in the same situations again.

I've noticed that I have social anxiety and have probably had it my whole life.
I am terrified of spiders. So much that my body shakes in fear around them.
I have a similar fear with answering the phone when it's someone I don't know or if I have to call a stranger.
I've been debating on calling the dentist to make an appointment and have been having so much trouble trying to make the call. I kept putting it off because of my anxiety. I just really don't want to talk to a stranger. I'd much rather text or email for an appointment. I did try to email but did not get any reply yet. So I'm gonna have to suck it up and make the call. It's nerve-wracking though. But I have a half tooth in the back that needs to be pulled. I need a front chipped tooth fixed. And I have a gaping hole in another tooth because of a cavity.
So definitely a good idea to make an appointment. But my nerves are getting the better of me because I have to talk to someone I don't know, to make the appointment. And I also am worried about my overactive bladder.

I literally stay home as much as possible because of my bladder. I'm in the bathroom constantly. (been dealing with this for years so it's become normal for me.) I don't know what my issue is. I've tried not drinking soda for about 1 year and that did nothing to help. I tried just drinking water and that did nothing. I tried drinking barely anything which did nothing but leave me dehydrated. So it didn't matter if I was drinking a little or a lot; I still went to the bathroom the same amount. I'm currently trying to lose weight since being overweight can cause bladder issues. I could also have diabetes. I haven't been tested for it cuz I hate doctors. After the rude doctor I saw because my workplace wanted a doctor note because of my frequent bathroom visits; I just really hate doctors. I knew for sure the coke wasn't the reason. But the doctor was rude and all like "quit drinking coke and soda cuz that's the problem". Dumbass. There are more reasons than how much or what someone is drinking. I really hate dealing with asshats. I don't understand why people can't just be nice.

treat others with respect and if they are rude first, then you can be an a** back to them. It's because of hateful asshats that our world is heading for an apocalypse. I really believe this world is heading to hell, because there are so many cruel people.