So apparently some people have a "delayed circadian rhythm" which means that they naturally want to stay up and sleep in later.
I hate that more people don't know and accept this fact. We live in a society that says the only way to be successful and productive is to get up before dawn and work until you drop from exhaustion. Anything less than that and you are labelled as lazy.
It drives me a little crazy because as much as I hate those ideas, those thoughts are still ingrained in my head. If I sleep in past a certain time, I feel bad about myself. Even though no one really cares. No one is here monitoring me, no one is checking in to see what time I woke, it doesn't affect my world in any real significant way. Except that the way I think about myself ends up coloring my day.
If I wake up feeling like a lazy slob, I'm more likely to live out that reality. I wish I was one of those types that thinks "I'm going to prove them wrong!" but I'm not. I've tried to beat myself up and force myself to be that bog standard early bird, but it just doesn't stick.
But on the other hand, I have trouble just letting it go and allowing myself to sleep on whatever schedule feels natural to me. It's kind of a catch-22 for me. I need to just accept myself and I want to. I just need to realize that it will still take some time to reprogram all these misconceptions that I've been taught.
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