It feels like burnout is resurfacing this week.
It makes sense because everything keeps getting thrown at me. I was supposed to go to a wedding today but I'm just not up to it. Husband isn't feeling well, and I was not about to go alone.
I feel bad about not going, but there's just so much going on right now. And it's not even the only wedding on the schedule.
There are two more this year and I'm involved in one of those. There are just so many people in this world, and the amount of things you are "supposed" to do to keep up with it all feels like too much.
There are a million birthdays, birthday parties, pot-luck dinners, weddings, anniversaries, house-warmings, promotions, babies, engagements, and other special events. Each of these things seems to require attention in some way shape or fashion and you are supposed to know the required actions for everything.
Send a card, give money, bring food, buy gifts, remember all of these things so you can send an encouraging message because heaven forbid your own life takes up all of your brain space and you forget!!
I just can't keep up and I think this is why I tend to become a hermit. The only way to stop people from expecting things from you is to stop having people in your life, apparently.
It's sad and I hate it. I want people in my life, I'm just tired of social demands and not feeling able to keep up with them. Why is society built this way when so many of us just can't do all of it?
I feel doomed to fail.
ShiroOkazaki Community Member 
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