Well, I'm not exactly gonna be as depressing as I was perhaps a while back. I'm sorry for these journal entries, but I guess it would help people to understand my lack of life at the moment.
1st off, I have started college again. It's the new year and I seem to be starting off pretty good, but it's straining my mind and emotions, and besides all that, things at home haven't gotten all that much better. Not to mention the money crisis that has accured due to my Dad being kicked out of his job. Not because he's bad at it, but because they had decided they didn't need him, this was two weeks after he had been hired.
And in that time, he had an operation on his knee, which he was trying hard to overcome and help it heal faster. My dad tries really hard for this family, I just wish others did the same thing to improve the atmosphere.
My hysterics seems to have gotten worse, I have come close breaking into tears at college, but luckily I have had a good mood to over come that.
I feel somewhat forgotten sometimes. Weither it be by one certain person, or many. But that's my fault for not being as active as I once have on gaia. But am I only loved for my artwork?
Lately I have been feeling lonely and somewhat heartbroken. I know I shouldn't, I should be used to it, but promises have been broken or times have been taken away.
I dont want to be in this house anymore. My happy face is met with anger and sadness, I'm finding it hard to keep my love for this place. I feel so annoyed at them all.
Gah.. It's getting too deep again, so I'm going to stop it there.
I'm going to continue to work hard this year, and I'm going to smile for everyone. Just please, everyone on gaia who reads this and who cares, let me sort out my real life first before I come back at full force.
College I'm stilling trying to get into the swing of, my friends are just starting to come back to me, if not slowly, and my heart is lonely and I need to gain confidence in that part of my life.
*Sigh* I guess I just really miss the old days..
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I'm scared about college. o.o I think it'll be kinda stressful, and take time away from things I really enjoy doing. Damn, I wish I was in kindergarden again! xD
Anyway, do your best, Dk! No one can blame you for being away from Gaia. Hopefully, everything will be ok! heart