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The snow is softly falling outside. A white Christmas is rare so I should be enjoying this, but I'm not. My window is closed so I won't have to see the snow. Why don't I want to see the snow? It reminds me of you. The snow is fallen, so soft and innocent. I hate being reminded of you. I know you left and that you had your reasons, but if I could change anything it would be what to said about you. You don't know how much I miss you. I'd give anything to see you again. Even a short glimpse of your face would put together the peices of my heart. I can't a stand another day knowing that you hate me. I hate myself. Only death would be a fitting punishment for myself. Yet, I can't bring myself to death. I can only manage to create scars. Maybe not getting your punishment and living in guilt is a punishment it'self. My mind dreads upon the fact that I can't see you, and that I will be here. Here in my room, locked up in my deepest, agonizing thoughts. The emptiness I feel cannot be healed until I see you again. You're the only thing I want for Christmas, the only thing I want at all.

ffsmikeishereagain
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Commented on: Mon Dec 25, 2006 @ 02:59am


	y did u have to write something about me ? heart j/k happy holidays sarah

Commented on: Tue Dec 26, 2006 @ 04:03am


	lol, thanks Mike ^.^

cherrilie__x
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Commented on: Tue Dec 26, 2006 @ 08:02pm


	always a pleasure to u ya'll smile 3nodding

Commented on: Fri Dec 29, 2006 @ 01:00am


	you still haven't let me go from that hug xD

Commented on: Fri Dec 29, 2006 @ 01:15am


	not sure if i plan to either blaugh

Commented on: Sat Dec 30, 2006 @ 12:13am


	eternal hug! eek

Commented on: Thu Jan 04, 2007 @ 01:47am


	yes heart

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