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Like everything I ******** do anymore hurts someone....
I try to make a friend of mine happy because she was let down by to guys.
I made a stupid comment that just got me in trouble with the ONE person I do not want to get in trouble with, Rich.
I hurt him.
I made him feel like I'm ..like everyone else out there.
WELL IM NOT!!
Im not like those people sad
I'm the quite strange girl that speaks her mind sometimes and when she does it blunt and to the point.
I'm the one that normally keeps to herself unless she is in need of some friendly contact.
I'm not the girl that goes around cheating on the one she loves because its the thing thats in or whatever.

I'm loyal..
I'm trying my HARDEST to please--EVERYONE--around me.
I try to make people happy when s**t hits the fan.

I try to make people HAPPY.

ANd that just gets put back in my face..
I make ONE PERSON happy...
The one I love the most...is hurt.

I can't do anything right it seems like.
I just wish for one thing...
That people can be happy..
so I can be happy....someday.
Now or later.
I dont care...
Try being happy, People.
Im tired trying to help people be a FRACTION happier.
I want to make ONE person happy right ythis moment.
Rich.
But it seems I cant even ******** DO THAT!

...and I fear that because of what I said to cheer up my friend...
may have cost me...the only thing making me happy.
I dont want to lose that....
sad


I suck.
I'm s**t!
I'm not worth jack.

And Im done trying to please everyone when I cant even please the one I love true.

C..