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So first my kiki on my other account has gone MIA. If it doesn't turn up when the suitcase is accessable again I'll be more than just annoyed. And a friend got banned AGAIN and he doesn't even know why this time.

I've been having a low tolerance with some things lately. Like it happens, I'm irritated the day it happens. Then later something related to it comes up where I thought I had let it go, and instead I'm shaking with fury and take it out and then I'm alright again for the moment. But I am not handling something well right now. MUCH better than in the past, but still it's like a relapse I guess from memories. I'm angry but then I forget... until I remember and get irritated again. Meh. I'm not even sure what's going on. I only know one thing that hurt me that I would expect to bug me a little. I guess the rest is building off it. Plus maybe part of it is me taking out other stresses I havn't really noticed I might have. Like Carmina Burana in about a month, and a college audition in less than a month... Though the Bach piece is coming along. Then all state results should be out sometime monday or so. Carmina Burana actually won't be bad. I'm not going to be stuck on one instrument. It sounds like I'll do Timpani on one movement, and maybe mallets or another percussion part in another, throughout the piece. That would be really fun... but annoying to accomplish on stage if we have to keep switching percussion players. I'm not the only one now too. We have 2 or 3 other students that will be helping out and 2 of them are specialty mallet players. Sadly the only one out of the two who could do timpani... can't play timpani at that level in time so i doubt she'll get a timpani part since dov will probably want that. oy... kinda tangent from what i wanted to talk about.

Also my report card came out. Even though I totally f***ed around the last month or so of the quarter/semester, I made out with good grades. Pretty much they are te same as last quarter. My B in creative writing went down to B- , but my A in Music Tech went up to an A+, so it's a good trade off... and I get paid for my report cards so according to my mom she owes me 80 dollars o.o;

... *goes to huggle cat and go to sleep*