I have not written to you in a long time Diary. I feel I should start again though. I know I always said online dating was STUPID... But... I donno.. I feel things for people on here more than I have ever felt in real life, so... Yeah... I thought I had these feelings with Levi, but no, no, he left me alone, he ******** DITCHED me. Then I met Brett. Things changed, I hate writing in class, i'm get yelled at for writing to you Diary, but i MUST.. Its an urge.
ON TO OTHER SUBJECTS....
I know I don't like my mother, But I still love her.... Lately I have cried... alot.. I tell everyone it's because someone has broken me down... The school has sent me to the Shrink. But I have no care for them.. assholes..Anyways. I told everyone It was because somebody hurt my feelings. [Girly huh?] Thats not the reason... Its because my mom has a 40% chance of living through her surgery on the 7th. She has cancer tumors in her... Uteris.... v****a.. all around there... I hate her guts, But i feel she could get better, if she focused on not hitting people.... I... I feel like crying more... These damned tears, they ******** never stop! The few friends I have, they keep asking what's wrong. Usually I hold my tears in until I get home... But i can't anymore... I cry in my classes now... Even right now, and its only second period....
AND IT SUCKS DIARY, IT REALLY DOES.....
I get laughed at.... alot. I... I don't know what to do.. I can't stop crying and yet i'm so pissed every minute of my life.... They never stop diary... They never do.... People tease me daily, i swear, they are just BREWING the kid who comes to school one day, and murders everyone... I have thought about it... Just walking in school with a gun... Walk into random calssroom *Boom, pop pop* Yeah.. Those two assholes are DEAD. I have seriously thought about it.... And I want to... Btu... I also don't want to, jail would suck... I have to go, my teacher is being an a*****e and telling me to actually work....
ON TO OTHER SUBJECTS....
I know I don't like my mother, But I still love her.... Lately I have cried... alot.. I tell everyone it's because someone has broken me down... The school has sent me to the Shrink. But I have no care for them.. assholes..Anyways. I told everyone It was because somebody hurt my feelings. [Girly huh?] Thats not the reason... Its because my mom has a 40% chance of living through her surgery on the 7th. She has cancer tumors in her... Uteris.... v****a.. all around there... I hate her guts, But i feel she could get better, if she focused on not hitting people.... I... I feel like crying more... These damned tears, they ******** never stop! The few friends I have, they keep asking what's wrong. Usually I hold my tears in until I get home... But i can't anymore... I cry in my classes now... Even right now, and its only second period....
AND IT SUCKS DIARY, IT REALLY DOES.....
I get laughed at.... alot. I... I don't know what to do.. I can't stop crying and yet i'm so pissed every minute of my life.... They never stop diary... They never do.... People tease me daily, i swear, they are just BREWING the kid who comes to school one day, and murders everyone... I have thought about it... Just walking in school with a gun... Walk into random calssroom *Boom, pop pop* Yeah.. Those two assholes are DEAD. I have seriously thought about it.... And I want to... Btu... I also don't want to, jail would suck... I have to go, my teacher is being an a*****e and telling me to actually work....
