Cry Out For some peace, I cry out for love. I know that I have to stop this mad rage but my body still tells me I should try. So until my body realizes please stay and help me remember. Don't let me forget the important things, But help me remember what’s in reality. Remember I'm still loved yet... Can't be at the same time... Don't let my reactions from before scare you, just push me away and say "Remember Remember" Let me see the wrongs of my actions... Lust and love should not interfere with our Friend ship. My love oh love of mine I promise you some reassurance My Actions will pass... Please Remember My weakness... Hope and faith diminished so weak I am... Let me lay and Close my eye's, Pray to god to forgive me for not believing in him, for he gave the gift of keeping you close, Forgive me for my wrongs forgive me for this life I bring. Give me the strength, and soon you shall see... A much stronger me...
Please let me fulfill this...
Okay After that teary thing I also want to add a few things. Since it is February and I have no date... yet or again... I have to wear my ribbon.
To Explain:
V-day a dreaded part of my life as it always has been. My friend when I was Kindergarten promised ourselves to wear a Black Ribbon or string till February is over if we didn't have a date by v-day, I have to wear it all though the first 14 days, if no date is there... then come V-day if I don't have one I must keep it on. Only at logical times though like if I was at work or shop, I'd use a string not a ribbon.
But yesh that is that lil bit.
School sucks and they’re trying to send me to therapy... Again rolleyes *sigh* Just because I I'm dark and depressed a lot DOES NOT I repeat DOES NOT make me Emo... yes I have cuts... From working like a normal lil person would... Vicky has 7 cuts force by herself and Noooo she's pretty she can't be doing that herself rolleyes like whatever... Heh prep Moment.
Home is gay...
I mean Mom's B/F keeps yelling at me, I have A's and B's and they still don't respect me. I did how ever get the comp back in the morning so I have ten or 15 minute before I head off to school on the comp, Especially Next week... Shop Week at school.
Work
I Keep spending all of my money >__< Jeez money goes so ******** fast.... I hate it because now I can't fly down to see my Jaccy! not with out asking Dad for money first... and you people that know me, know I'd rather hack my own foot off gonk
After the summer
I turn 18 pretty soon guys... I think I even have a roommate already, Sir Frankie has been looking for someone to be roomies with to escape his parents... Heh, he's so cute 25 and still with mom and dad ^__^... He calls them the rents though. so if I save my money I should have about 3000 at the summer time, hopefully I can do it. Then I also (weather or not I go to see Jaccy in two weeks or not) Plan to go See Jaccy and Psy. For a little while none the less but... you know just to spend some time with two people that care for me and s**t... get me away from mass for a while. then later on depending I'll fly out to Cali for a week I can see my Reika and Steven-kun 4laugh .
Next years schooling.
Here's were you guys can help me out... Please... should I go back to that school next year? I really don't want to but it's my last year and every one tells me I should go...
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No go to collage, if your already there University, if already there then if you feel like it.
i have no problens like that at all, so i considermyself luck, an di feel sorry for you Dante, if i could ide life your life fore a month so you could live mine as a holiday blaugh heart
any you can get that money and get that flat, and live with some cute guy... ORGY, lol, you can do anything you want, get rich then go home and say "******** YOU RETARDS" then run away with millions of moneys... when your 30 4laugh