Thought I could make a fresh start this week. I was hoping for Joel to be back, it's since he's been ill that all this happened. Y'know, maybe I could catch him on the way to school and have a chat with him, put my mind at ease knowing that I have at least one real friend (hopefully). But no, he's still away.
I'm fed up of standing around on the outskirts of clumps of people because some people stand with their back to me and exclude me from their conversations. I am an interesting person, but no one dares give me a chance.
I'm never anyone's first choice to sit with them in lessons. They'd rather have someone else sitting there, and I have to go off somewhere else.
I'm always the one walking on the outside of a line of people, and I'm always the one to step behind whenever some other people are trying to get past. It doesn't matter, I'm never included in their conversations anyway.
No one ever bothers to ask me if they can sit in my seat. But no, I can't complain, or they'll just think even less of me.
No one's ever desperate to talk to me. Am I just not interesting enough?
At one point I actually smiled when Anthony smiled at me, but no, Kiera brought me right back down when she said 'No one likes her' as I walked past.
Even as I'm walking home I've got people I've never spoken to before ridiculing me.
What is it about me that everyone despises?
Why does no one even give me the chance to have a conversation with them?
What can I do to make people like me?
What's the point.
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