Last night pretty much sucked too. I was talking to Joel and I mentioned that there was someone I liked and he guessed it was Ben, and then he told me that Ben had a girlfriend so then I was all depressed, but I didn't want Joel knowing who it was so for awhile I tried to act like it hadn't affected me at all, but whatever. It's just Joel. And he said he wouldn't ever tell anyone, so I think he figured out after awhile anyway.
And then I was miserable.
In my school, EVERY loser gets a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Except this loser.
I'm too much of a loser, even for the losers.
The losers don't even WANT to hang out with me.
I never have anyone to hang out with, and no one ever invites me to hang out with them.
Maybe it would've been better to have moved this year... so I could have gone to a different school. And maybe I could have actually had friends.
So today after school I went to the anime club and there were these two people being all annoying and coupley and I HATED it but of course JOEL wouldn't do anything about it because he's PERFECTLY FINE with it.
And then Ben was there and I was trying not to look at him, but he didn't even come over to say hi, I guess now that he has a GIRLFRIEND and all, he would never want to associate with me.
Then Joel was gone for awhile so I figured he left, so I left too.
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