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I got to thinking about alot of stuff. Maybe the reason why everything else failed for my love is because I wasn't meant to be with those people. That the lies they gave would teach me about trust and guide me to the right path. Then just suddenly when everything was all figured out I found him. At least it truly seems like I have. In true love, theres always a wait, something tries to prevent it but more like different... Not that it is being prevented but to let it grow and as a friend once said "love is like a flower." True love grows when things try to stop it, so that its power is more then anything when its finally complete.

I realized to that in the end of all our lives today, we will be the ones wiser then the children of tomarrow. As are parents are to us now, we will be to those children when they are our age and are our parents age. We live to see all this but think we won't make it because it is truly hard. But the forces that be never said it would be easy. But even so how I long to be touched by the love of my life. How I wish for his grace to be within my arms and I within his. To be one!


The spring has come once again, which for me is the new year. The plants and animals begin to awaken as the new energies of the earth sprout from the ground in ever lasting glory. I feel at peace with the earth and all her creatures.


I hope from the very stars each night that I will yet again speak to my love everyday continuously until we meet in person. Then a new chapter will finally begin as one has begun already. Four years is alot of time and many things can happen within just a year. Even though it may not seem that long, sometimes when you sit in between time and space like I have, it is very long but yet also eternal. Where you feel immortal to the point because nothing happens. Oh how the experiences I treasure within my heart will never fade but I wish to be loved by the one I found to this day.


For everyone that has ever loved you know how I feel inside, to wait forever until the end of time. As this is done the bond between the two will grow more and more until finally it will sprout like a flower bloom and rise into the highest of clouds to create a world unimaginable. Like we are now, children of our parents, they watch over us in the sky but soon within the near future we will be there in our own sky and world watching over our own or possibly others. Time its self...it is change and as things change they grow. I have changed much since the past year and will continue. I just hope forever more that the love I found will keep eternal.


~Feel The Eternity~