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It seems like the love I feel is so strong it is beyond the word meant for it. Like in fact the word love does not even compare to how I feel for him. Its like everything in existance. It is divine in this sense. I try to find the right words for it but it doesn't seem like its good enough. I make poems to express how I feel but its still not to its full extent of how I feel. THIS FEELING IS BEYOND ALL THINGS IN EXISTANCE!!! It is the feeling of eternity and divine feeling. Divine meaning of god-like. It is so strong no matter how I try to express it doesn't seem good enough in words. If there was a person that could be more then just #1 he would be it. If there was a word more then love that is how I would feel for him. If there was a word to explain all of how I feel, that word would explain everything.

This feeling is beyond human understanding, as the word I am searching for isn't within my own langauge or way to understand things in this body. I feel like what I say in poems and every word I speak doesn't compair to how I truly feel but I don't know how else to put it. Theres so much feeling there, so much strong feeling. I believe its the purest thing I have ever felt.

Not one person ever has said or done what he has. I mean, If a person told you they wanted to be one with you what would you say to it? I would be speechless. I want that more then anything. I want a life with him and more. I want all that there is to share with him. I want to spend every moment of every day with him and love him beyond human emotions.

I feel sometimes like I may not be enough because of my past and what I have felt with others. He is the first to ever feel so strongly towards me other then it being of physical means. How in the cosmos can one love so much that its more then anything in the entire multiuniverse? I want to be part of him forever as he does me. I want to be able to express my emotions in words or perhaps some type of thing beyond all human understanding. Only emotions can tell him how I feel and these words I write are the only way I can explain this type of love.

This feeling is also nearly non existant and not many humans can love like this. It is a love beyond all understanding of thoughts but just emotion. Speaking to each other like a vibe of music through the ears. No words can explain this feeling except of how I can explain it now. There is no word to put a label on it but yet...I want to. But this feeling is limitless and no word would be appriate for it.


I want to be enough, I want to be beautiful, I want to be the best that ever there was for him. I WANT TO BE ONE WITH HIM FOREVER, TO SHARE ONE BODY, ONE MIND, TO FEEL EACH OTHERS PAIN AND SUFFERING, TO DEAL WITH EVERYTHING AS ONE AND ACT AS ONE, I WANT IT ALL AND MORE BECAUSE I LOVE HIM BEYOND HUMAN UNDERSTANDING, BEYOND THE FEELING THEN JUST THE WORD LOVE IT IS ALL MORE, EVERYTHING IN EXISTANCE IS HOW IT FEELS AND I WANT IT MORE THEN TO LIVE, I WANT IT MORE THEN ALL OTHER THINGS I WANT HIM FOREVER, I WANT TO BE ONE SOUL IN EXISTANCE TO RISE AND TO FLURISH AMONG THE GODS AND STARS, US AS ONE BODY ONE SOUL FLYING ABOVE THE HEAVENS AND BEYOND SUCH, HE IS MY LIFE, HE IS PART OF MY SOUL, HE IS EVERYTHING IN LIFE, HE IS MY ONE AND ONLY SOUL MATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!