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Data Log Entry #11

I haven't written in this journal for a long time...wow...oh well I don't really care. I don't feel like myself right now...I just feel like an unfed lion. Angry but I don't know why exactly. I wonder why...oh well. Life goes on, you just gotta keep moving with it. It won't stop for you, but you can stop for it. I'm listening to Mr.Brightside righ now. It's a cool song. I don't have LinkinPark songs with me right now. I don't feel like getting them either. I'll just listen to what I have. I really don't give jack about any of my problems right now. Especially one problem. I just gotta let that hopeless case go. They are really hopeless and are lost causes. But I'll still be there. I still care, but they can say all the s**t in the world about me, I woudn't do anything to them. I know they backbite about me, I don't really care. I forgave 'em all ready. They've done it alot lately. I might nd up not forgiving this recent one...I don't know what to do. Shove it back in their faces like they did to me on other things, or let it fly by like the rest. I guess only time will tell. I just really feel like screaming at them, but what would that do? Nothing, so it is useless to do it. Talking is abig no, one just keeps ignoring me as if I'm just some dust. I never really felt like this before. I don't know what to do.... I was and am calm. But right now...a huge flame is burning with in me and I don't know how to extinguish it. I've tried everything and they all failed. I put my heart in soul into this one thing, and they throw it on the floor, spit and step on it infront of my eyes. I tried many times to communicate with them, but failed each and everytime. Well you know what, I just can't stand it. I never put that much effort in anything I've ever done. When I did, for them, they just toss it as if is a load of crap. I just can't take it anymore. I just feel like grabbing them both and pushing them against the wall and just screaming at them. If not, talk to them, get this anger out, so it'll leave me alone. I want to be free again.And I will. I'll make sure of it. If not, I'll die trying if need be. It is a mission I will not fail.
>Sicone