im kinda sick of life.
im depressed... im anxious, tired, lonely, unloved, worried, blahblahblah.
im emo biggrin !... *Die*
Basically like... my grandmothers going to die becuase she has cancer... and shes raised me since i was 3 so im kinda worried about her (ya know, alittle...)
jay never talks to me anymore. he never calls. I CANT call him cuz his phone got cut off and he can only call me from his grandmothers house, he is never there, he lives with jim (who is an a** and a half) and blahblahblah.
and im regretting that i didnt finish myself off earlier.
i just kinda want to die... is that a bad feeling? i mean, everyone goes through that. am i wrong to feel that way?
i dont want to take care of my grandmother. i have no clue what to do, i feel helpless, and i dont want to see her this way. i just want to leave and never come back. that would be a good thing... but like, i cant...
im sick of drama. everywhere i go theres drama and i ******** hate drama. it SUCKS...SO...MUCH! >.<!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i wish i was the way i used to be, but im afraid if i am like that then people will not like me anymore. and that would be weird... and i seem to change myself so that people will like me. like ill be all ghetto around juggalo people just so like they wont stop talking to me. i mean, my personality doesnt change, just the way i talk. and sometimes i get more hyper around some people than others. i dont know. maybe thats how all people are.
But like yeah, it sucks. and i want to die. i think... im going to go into like foster care or something... live with a friend, just to get away from this. becuase if i dont i feel like i wont be alive much longer.
Lana Luvv Community Member 
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