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The tension on teh rope is begging to tighten again between Dan and I. Him and I are two oppposite people who share the same desire: Control over me. He kept me up until 10:45 last night, when I was soposed to be in bed by 9:00. The issue is not that, but this: He was making me do the dishes! Watching me like a hawk, and inspecting each piece of silverware as if looking for a bomb that was expected to explode. I sonsidered pulling a knife out on Dan, I seriously considered just killing him. Then, I dropped the knife in the water. Everyday its teh same. He yells at me for being who I am. I cannnot even talk to my own mother, for she shuts me out to do homeowork... I'm tired of living in this place. I'm tried of living in general. Shanna and Mike are the only two that have helped me recently. Everyone else to me seems like a disease. A piece of a decrepid past that won't stop following me around. I can't even say I love you to the gir I want to be with to her face, because even if its the truth, it will only hurt in the end. Dan thinks im blowing off. I'm not. Im simply choosing what I believe is a higher value then my family. My friends. I couldn't care less if both Dan and my mother killed over, I say with complete honesty that I hate them both. I would tell them to go to hell, but I don't want them in my land when I die.