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Okay, here's a skinny on my situation. This message is dedicated to all you idiots who have no clue what its like to be somone like me. To all you people who have parents that are there for you, there to support you, and hell even a "god" to love and nurture you whenever you fall and to pick you back up. Every damned day, I live on this earth I am plagued by bad luck, stupidity, and constant stabbed with needles that eventually get to my organs and make me bleed into eternity. How you ever heard about death by a thousand small cuts? They're bound to kill you eventually. That's how this goes. Everyday I am constantly nagged, ignored, teased BY MY OWN FRIENDS aout who I am. I'm called, "Man whore, Stupid, and Abusive" by multiple people everyday. It eventualyl gets to your head after a while. I am hated by almost everyone who are not my friends. If your not my friend, I hate you right back. I'm backstabbed left and right by my closest friends, lied too, decieted, and blown off, because I am to polite to tell tehm they are total bullshit. I have a stepfather who Is from the army who like to take a totaltarianism power over me. Everyday he pokes and poikes and pokes at every fiber of my being. I am assaulted with sarcasm whenever I need help. Unlike the rest of you bastards I have no one to pick me up, to think about when I'm down. No one to holld my hand and tell me it's alright. I don't have a god to believe in I don't have the storng will built by the "loving" parents who will cator to my whim. In fact I have the oppsite now. My family doesn't like me for who I am. My mom ignores me ont eh rare occasions I get to see her, and only talks to me when I've done somthign wrong or to sneer a bad remark about how retarted my cloths are. My step father sis only nice to me after I havemental breakdowns((caused by him) Then the next day, he's back to drillingme, to test how long I can stand him before I breakdown again. At school I have to deal with the annoyances of idiotic wemon who think they have a chance with me. In fact, I've turned everyone of the girls that have asked me out for one reason and one reason only. I don't want to waste my pathetic life with a dead weight woman weighing me down. I've come to hate alot of things, hate life, hate love, hate humans. You want to know who I am? That's too bad. I don't give a s**t about my past. What happened, happened and nows the time to move. I don't care where it leads me as long as I don't have to spend anymore nights clinging to a sad pathetic emotion called love. It's all bullshit to even try. What am I going to get out of love? I don't even think i'm love accept for one thing, the emotion. I like how the words tingle in the mind as you chase blindely what you cannot have. As your contantly shut down, conStantly have to stay silent in order to keep what joys you have left in your life. Now you tell me, who gives you the ******** right to think that i'm nothing but lies and false emotion. Bullshit. This aint even half of the s**t that goes down everyday. Now you tell me agian, who gives you the right to think im a fake? You live in my shoes for one week and you'de want to die or kill somone too.