Can you not see that I go the extra mile to look pretty for that one compliment? I want your arms around me regardless of who is watching. I want you to throw it in her face that I’m more fun. I want you to come home and give me a hug and a kiss first. I want you to ask how my day went. I want you to look at me the way guys look at beautiful girls in movies. I want to feel like your princess, your best friend, you partner. I want to feel safe and protected. I want you to get defensive when other guys look at me. I want you to come after me when I walk away. I want you to tell me you’re sorry you hurt my feelings, and mean it. I want you to never ignore my attention. I want you to appreciate the fact that I give my whole self to you, not half of me:
I am sorry I’ve pushed you so much; I apologize for any annoyance. I meant no harm, I only want to show you what I feel, and I pray and hope it’s mutual. I have to give in a little, and understand that you can never feel as strongly as I do, because you can’t let go of the pain in the past. but please, understand:
I have never held back in anything I do. I was taught to give my all. I’ve given everything I can of myself to you. All I have ever asked of you was your time and attention….. your love. Maybe I’m pushing you too much. The reason I push is because I fear that if I walk away you wouldn’t care enough to come after me. I need to know you care, I need your hugs and kisses and I need your assurance that I am beautiful and worth it. I need you to give me your heart, I promise I won’t break it. QUIT HOLDING BACK AND LET GO OF YOUR PAST. I ask this of you because I want to be your future.
Morning_Freedom Community Member 
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