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I want to scream. I want to weep. I want to laugh. I want to cry. I want to fight. I want to fall. But most of all, I want to punch a hole in the wall.

I want to do so much but it's so hard. I want to let loose all my anger, frustration, depression, and worry. Yet when I try I cannot. Each emotion remains bottled up inside me. Burrowing itself deeper, almost unreachable. My thoughts, my dreams, my cares, my fears. Each so influenced by emotion. And yet I find myself unable to express any emotion. I am like a canvas though each time I try to portray what I feel, the paint fades through, leaving only the white, untouched, canvas.