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Why did you do that when I was all yours from the start? Even when I gave you everything I had? Mind and body? Heart and soul? Why did you leave me like that? Alone, in the darkness? I never thought you would turn on me. You were the only light in my mind. This is not going to end, is it? The heartache I feel, is it normal? I've never felt like this . Why me? Why my life? Why did you leave me?

I fell for your looks and charm. And your eyes as deep as any sea and deeper. I should have known you were like this. With anyone you can be with. I only loved you, truly.Mind, body, heart and soul.

You looked past me and still do! Are you ashamed of what you did? Well, you should be! If there was a hospital for broken hearts, I'd be there for eternity, and longer. A place, alone like the flicker of a candle in a dark room, with someone who left one soul, hurting and bleeding and weak. Bleeding, weeping, screaming...alone.

I thought after "you" there would only be a "we" and not always jusy be a "me". I didn't think I be left alone like I always was. I still love you! Can't you see that? Can't you see that by the tears rolling down my face? By the blood dripping down my arms? By the heart thats still broken?

I can't sleep. Not thinking of you became impossible. We were once one, but it fell apart so fast. You loved her, and I loved you. I knew love hurt, but not like this. Never like this. Like my heart was riped out and thrown in the middle of a stampied and I was still alive, still breathing. Is it supposed to hurt this bad?

I'm so alone. No one's here. I'm just a faded image in your memory, am I not? I will always love you, no matter the cost, the pain, or the death. I just want you to be happy. I don't care anymore whether it's with me or someone else. Be happy, with or without me.

If you ever knew my feelings for you, but I've been left to die again. If I disappeared, would you notice? If I died, would you care? If you lost everything, would you turn to me? If only you knew but you left too early for me to tell you.

I will just go from here. I will have to walk the broken-heart road, alone...again. I don't want anymore pain! JUst make it all go away! I'm going insane! No one's here to help me! No one's here to heal me! No one's here to relight the flickering candle! I can't stand it! It hurts! I need to find another place! A place darker than your eyes.

I feel it! Is it death? Is it life? Is it love? Is it contentment? Is it anything? Is it loneliness? Yes, I recognize this feeling. Heart broken. It's the longing feeling of heart brokeness that yearns for another. My heart aches. But I hope I'm fine, I hope I'll be fine. Just be happy, for me, okay? I love you and always will. Even when eather of us is alone, we will always be together. Don't ever change. Follow your dreams while you can. Don't let the darkness swallow you up. Let me be your light when in utter darkness.

I love you. Goodbye, my love, goodbye.