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So, for awhile now I've been a bit on the heavy side. 180 pounds all through middle school and high school. More recently however I've dropped a total of forty pounds. So for almost a year I've been 140. I was happy when people started asking if I'd lost weight(I hadn't realized until they all started pointing it out at once). Then my dad ruined my hard work for me and asked my mom to listen in on me in the bathroom to make sure I'm not throwing up..... I worked out every day for 45 minutes you jerkbag! But how would you know!? It's like you don't even live here!

So anyway.... I glanced at myself in the mirror today and noticed I was looking a bit more slim that usual. Normally even at 140 I would look at myself and say "Ok, my weight is healthier and I'm eating healthier, but I still need to loose more weight." Now I've dropped five pounds. I'm at 135 and I feel like another ten pounds will complete what I've worked so hard for. I don't look at myself in the mirror anymore and say "Still fat. Maybe twenty more pounds." Now I look in the mirror and I smile. I may not be the sexiest person alive. But I feel good about who I am now.