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So some of you have been wondering where I've disappeared to on FB. *gags* rolleyes .

First of all FB is a drama-festered, stalking agent, pre-teen playground of the new century. It's no longer the "connect with friends" social setting it started out to be. Facebook is making it easier and easier for people to stalk and peek in on peoples lives who you will not even take the time to LEGITIMATELY talk to. A place for your face to explain who you are rather than yourself. For me it was an addiction. A need to "sign in" everyday to see what new drama was occurring. And then one day it occurred to me.

I do not need drama anymore.

I know several people who will go through a *long intake of air* friend of a friends facebook to peek in on someone THEY know mutually, to peek in on someone THEY themselves hate and blocked, to see what is going on in this persons lives to see if the FIRST persons life is somehow better than the person they hate GAAAAAAH! Just saying that makes my tongue feel all twisted and ******** up. But that's the sad thing... It's all true. We're losing touch with each other. The touch we used to share from hugging and laughing together in a room.

I no longer need the interent to satisfy any needs in my life. I don't need any more faceless compliments, I don't need anymore justification for a bad-day-rant, I don't need it anymore to talk to someone when I'm lonely. The real life provides all that for me now. And the sun feels a hell of a lot better on my face than the glare does for my eyes on my computer screen late at night.

The only reason why I was on facebook at this point, was to keep up with friends, as the site was intended for. Friends who, now I realize, weren't really friends to begin with. This became apparent as I shut down my FB and, as meg and I were previously ignored (or silently stalked) suddenly she became popular and why was this? Because people who HAVE MY NUMBER AND THIS SITE mind you, wanted to know where I had gone, why had I done what I did? Instead of reaching out and asking ME, these fake people asked her. Nothing wrong with that, but you all didn't bother actually asking me lol. The person who legit left. That is why you are all....

Fake talk2hand

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I have no real friends that I know in my heart will always be there if I need them anymore. No on on this side of the country at least rolleyes lol. And that's the best truth I can give you. If it's harsh and then you should look in a mirror and think about if it's true or not. When was the last time any of you dropped a line to ask me "oh haven't heard from you in a while how are you?" ((or MEANT it for that matter, not simply to be polite and ignore the response for another year and a half)) When was the last time after I dropped a compliment on a picture, did you return the favor? It's not about how many comments or messages or whatever I got a day. It was the thoughts that counted. And NONE of you did so. It wasn't a huge loss on my end believe me.

*sigh* pirate

So I left. I'll keep this around for a while. This site keeps me entertained for periods of time, earning gold and what not whenever I feel like mindlessly relaxing in front of a computer. But the drama is out. I do NOT need nor want anymore drama from anyone who ever called themselves my friend. It is nothing but negative energy and negative feelings for a short period of time that in the end.... won't mean anything, so I'd rather not spend the energy worrying/arguing about to begin with.

New motto: Keep it positive.

(and take this from the biggest hypocrite of them all, I'm still working on it in my own home. I have to start somewhere right?)

So remember, keep it positive, keep it simple, don't deal with what will not matter the next day. Work on something you KNOW will benefit you in the long run, no matter what it is. Passion. Love. Life smile
Now get off your comp and go enjoy the sunlight. You never know how long you have it for razz