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Sorrow and joy
Joy first. I finished painting my room. And I got the new carpet in. AND I got all my furniture in. I might need to switch my dressers around, but it's all in. I'll probably start to move my stuff back into my room tomorrow as well. If I'm really lucky too, an anime I ordered may come in tomorrow. I know they've shipped it, can't remember when, but it was a couple days back at least, so I've got grounds to hope on lol. Last bit of joy, I've got tomorrow off. Now for the sorrow. We had to get my dog, Cristy, put to sleep today. She was a terrier-mix, white with fox-red colored ears. In truth I always thought she looked like a fox. It's really sad, cause I've had Cristy for as long as I can remember. Being specific, bringing her home for the first time is the second oldest memory I have. I was about 3 then, so it was 14 years ago. She was old, and I'll admitt I'm glad she doesn't have to suffer through another summer of heat, fleas, and mosquitos (sp?). But God, it's hard to put the feeling into words. Let's put it this way; I don't cry often. Not when my pets die, not even when my grandparents die. I lock away sorrow. Only time I ever seriously cried over a pet was when mom's baka dog killed my favorite pet chicken. Well, I held Cristy while the vet gave her the shot. First one didn't kill her, but she was too numb to feel pain from the second one. In a way, I'm glad the first didn't kill her, cause I had time to pet her and sing a little song to her. I swear, I was crying the whole time. It's hard to let go of something you've hard for just about as far back as your memory goes, you know? Well I'm gonna go first something to do, maybe go to bed. ttyl, ya'll.
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