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A dull pain resides within.
As thoughts run through my head on what this could have been.
That constriction keeping things from getting out.
Things I should tell you that you really want to know nothing about.

It's harder that it seems to set myself up for this ride.
Especially since I know this will be emotional suicide.
Here, I admit what has been long over due.
Only to find out that I stand no chance with you.

Emotional suicide is what I just committed, which has me inside again.
My heart has been broken to many times and I don't think it will mend.
To think I tore my heart open just to feel the way I do.
To think I cared to much to anything but support you.

My heart breaks with each passing word from your lips.
But still I stay strong taking each of your emotional hits.
I am trying to play it cool and my true feelings to hide.
And there is no one to blame for this but myself for committing Emotional Suicide.