Grr... I keep drawing these awesome drawings... but I can't satisfy myself... I keep thinking them as horrible but everyone assures me they're great... and it's not helping some people close to me are either gone or might be horribly ill... I must draw to relieve my pain... to release my emotions... But I can't think of the proper things to draw... I go out to the local cafe and draw some of the people eating there... the picture turned out really good... the people didn't mind either when I showed them the drawing. I love my art, but for some reason I'm feeling lack luster about it... maybe I've lost the passion for it? I use to love to create music... but the idea of picking up my guitar scares me as well as of two days ago... I don't know what's going on... I'm so lost... I feel so alone... yet I feel so loved... I can't explain it... but... uugh! This is digging deep into my soul... deeper than anything before... this pain goes on and on... never ending... This pain is what drives mosts artists to do better... but it doesn't do the same for me... this pain is horrible... but I must withstand it and continue my art... though I put down my axe... my sword shall never leave me, I guess...
Shippeh · Sat Jul 30, 2005 @ 07:14pm · 3 Comments |