Alright... I have a problem... recently I've been thinking too much, I guess... I feel like I'm alone when I know I have good friends in real life and online... So this is confusing me... I just feel so left out... so... isolated. Like no one is there to catch me when I fall... I know there is... it's just some subconcious level in me... It's really hard for me to trust people, even my friends. It's not their fault, it's all the problems I've had in my life that made me this way... at nights I feel so cold... so lonely... so vulnerable... I don't know why, but depression seems to be slipping into my life... Grey clouds follow me around... they take away my shadow... Hide away everything but my fears. My fears... they never leave me... It's so dark, so frigid... The joy in me has melted away into an inky puddle of despair... I love my friends... It's just these new shadows seem to have made me lose my way, I need a light... anything to lead the way for me... anything at all... but it's so opague... it seems impossible.
Shippeh · Mon Aug 08, 2005 @ 11:09pm · 3 Comments |