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Dear Journal,
Do you ever feel trapped like you have no control over your life and all you can do is watch it fall and be dug deeper and deeper. Thats how I feel. For example our stupid nominee's that are shown on the lovely bias television programs. There all bias so why turn it on, there all depressing and theres better things I could be doing. Being glues to the tv is not one of them. At least I can say I didn't contribute to getting a shitty president. If you vote for Osama and say he becomes president or you don't vote aren't you just as liable for the damage?(I pray not , God wouldn't allow a horrible thing like that to happen would he?) . Either person doesn't care. maybe they just choose the lesser of two evils. So what wrong with putting in someone who was running. You know there are such thing as write ins also 3rd parties smile .

So let me count the ways I need to get a better job. My job sucks (many people can relate to that I'm sure).

-I don't make enough to move out

-customer service sucks

-waking up at 3:45 sucks

-living at home is annoying when your mom decides to clean out the storage locker and put it back into a tiny little row home. She wants to get rid of it . So where does my childhood stuff go I kind of already used the space. I'm not getting rid of it.

-then all I hear is my Dad bitching about how putting the doubles of stuff is a pain in the a** (not his words). But he repeats it over and over. Yah its not going to do anything by complaining . You can complain all you want and still be a sitting duck.

- I want freedom to cook what I want do what I want when I want to. If I do something someone will find something to b***h about it.

-no ringing doorbells, or loud neighbors (timing a bath so that you can have quite minus neighbors voices is hard and annoying).

Sometimes you just want quit. After hanging around my Dad at Brain Works and running around the city you get tired.

I cleaned my room because the living room has been invaded by black bags. I swear I could have a hidden camera (or 3 ) in the house . Then I could put it on you-tube. Maybe Mtv could buy it or something.

I guess a solution to the lack of control I feel would be to take a few more days off.

What I hate is peoples criticism of what I make. My family is hard to give stuff to try it has to be somewhat traditional for them to try it for example if it were cookies

What I want to do is make stuff and bring it into work. Some stuff can be really unhealthy in baking. Everyone seems to be watching there weight or what they eat to be more healthy. Could they fit in a napoleon? I mean I could just make them like 2by2 squares. By letting my co-works try stuff I could get constructive criticism, the food wouldn't go to waste, and it could be added in my portfolio.

Thanks for letting me rant a bit
Hachi_ateyou