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It's hard to explain my life lately. I certainly haven't been happy, thats for sure. I haven't made a journal entry on here for it seems like the longest time. I don't know how to explain my life by writing, I can honestly say I'm a very bad writer... I was reading the old journal entries I had posted & me and my sister's old yahoo conversations that were in the archives... and... well... I was really mean, no.. I was horrible. I realize how much I've changed in the past 10 months, I seriously had no life, before I read all those archives I couldn't remember last year, and now I realize why forgot it. :/

Let me just say, before I liked loved Blake Lewis, I was a total *CENSORED*. xD And my goodness! I'm not joking, I'm serious. No thinking before I spoke was what I've been doing, this year is changing my life for the better. And even if 2008 ends badly for me, which HOPEFULLY it won't, I would not call it a bad year... This year brought so much happiness to my life, untill september..
Nooooo, not september, please, noooo!
I'm just gonna put stuff in red and green, whatevers in green is great and made my life better, whatever is red is horrible and not just for me, the stuff in blue is what I've been freaking crying about lately. The stuff at the top is what happened first.

Ba de ah, cryin in September..:

My moms eBay store got closed, her eBay store is the only thing at the moment that is our familys income,
and is where me and my sister were making money selling custom t shirts.

Our black like 6 year old fish passed away.

Blake Lewis canceled half of his tour and is only going to the east coast.

October, possibly the scariest month of the year! (and NOT because of halloween):

Our Beta fish passed away.

I keep finding myself randomly crying while talking to people, online & offline.

We got a free cell phone that records video and takes pictures in the mail! (Long story).

My moms printer/scanner/copy machine died so she had to buy a new one.

My Papa's laptop died, it like overheated. I freakin lost all my stuff, all of it.
DANG I DON'T EVEN WANNA THINK ABOUT ALL THE STUFF I HAVE LOST.

Me and my sister are gonna be on TV, someone wants to interview us about Barbie Dolls.

I have to clean my room. xD

Pssh, and probably more than that. Please don't even bother me to think about it.
AND I WILL MEET BLAKE LEWIS ONE DAY, TRUST ME, I WILL.

I'm sorry this whole entry is so dweeby, it's like, I just gotta get this stuff out of my brain and if writing in this Gaia journal is how I'm gonna, then I need to do that. I will try to write in this more, I promise, I will try.