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who does he think he is to try and give me advice!?
how dare he tell me i need the family...i've proven many times i'd be just fine without them....and what gives him the right of all people to tell me such things?
he who shunned us and hated us and lied to and hurt us? the first born shining star...the forgiven son...he who holds no past transgressions in their eyes?
he has been forgiven by all...all but me that is....
he called and asked e to "hook him up" with one of my friends...one of my very best friends...and then had the nerve to tell me i need to stop bitching and that i should check my attitude?!!?!?
he's mad at a friend of his that i talk to....god forbid i talk to a boy....its like its the end of the world.....
he never cared before...well i shouldn't say never...but he never cared when it counted most...when i needed a big brother to be there for me he wasn't around....so he can't come into my life now and act as though its his right....to act as if he is trying to protect me. i won't give him that privilege....i've taken care of myself for so long now...i don't even think of him as my brother....
yet no matter how many times i tell myself i won't get my hopes up about him...that i won't cry anymore because of him, i always fall apart....he says he's changed...not in my eyes....not this time, nor next, nor ever again. i won't