Now for an entry that everyone can read. Sorry if I've been very... secretive lately? Just some things I needed to say that no one needed to see, and if I thought you didn't need to see it, it means I'm protecting you from the dangers of my mind, so don't think you really missed anything that's good for you.
Over the past two days, I've been brutally murdered by words from one of my most trusted friends, learned that I have to wait for the one relationship I long for, went through a pretty painful discussion with my best friend... It's a freaking miracle that I'm still able to breathe without feeling the pain in my chest I get when I'm stressed beyond belief. I wouldn't wish any of this upon anyone. Right now, I'm doing all right. Only time can repair the damage that's been done from the murdering. Only time can really fix anything right now.
Of course, there are some good things that have happened. The good news is that the inevitable is over. And the other good news is that a dear friend has come back to me, and my relief is unexplainable. No longer do I have to beat myself up over what could have happened. Everything is okay now.
Now, I have to do one more thing. Back in January when I left my dad's house, I kind of left behind an entire family of people that love me. I don't know how much they know about why I left my dad's house, which is why I haven't contacted them, but now... Well, it's something I have to do. So I have to start by e-mailing grandpa, getting the e-mails of my aunts, and go from there. They're the only ones I can really trust for now.
Better to get everything over with sooner than later, ne?
Over the past two days, I've been brutally murdered by words from one of my most trusted friends, learned that I have to wait for the one relationship I long for, went through a pretty painful discussion with my best friend... It's a freaking miracle that I'm still able to breathe without feeling the pain in my chest I get when I'm stressed beyond belief. I wouldn't wish any of this upon anyone. Right now, I'm doing all right. Only time can repair the damage that's been done from the murdering. Only time can really fix anything right now.
Of course, there are some good things that have happened. The good news is that the inevitable is over. And the other good news is that a dear friend has come back to me, and my relief is unexplainable. No longer do I have to beat myself up over what could have happened. Everything is okay now.
Now, I have to do one more thing. Back in January when I left my dad's house, I kind of left behind an entire family of people that love me. I don't know how much they know about why I left my dad's house, which is why I haven't contacted them, but now... Well, it's something I have to do. So I have to start by e-mailing grandpa, getting the e-mails of my aunts, and go from there. They're the only ones I can really trust for now.
Better to get everything over with sooner than later, ne?
