Public journal entry/blog rant about boys, friends, and altogether life. *girl rant mode*
I have a lot of lady friends, right? A lot of lovesick lady friends, happy lady friends, lady friends in love, and then all the lady friends that come to me asking for advice when I can hardly fix my own. But I enjoy it so I don't mind. Here's the discussion: Things you wish you hadn't said, or things you wish you had said differently. A lot of us have felt that silence or tense moment after saying something that we honestly wonder if we should have said in the first place. It's all part of biting your tongue I think. Distance or not, even I feel tension in replies. Sometimes it sucks because I'll be sitting to myself thinking "What the hell am I thinkingggg?" Have I not learned by now to just, avoid throwing myself on a limb and keep things simple? Really.
Aaaaanyway, topic change! I've got a handful of friends in Georgia, people that I laughed with and acted like a retard with for several years, people who I bonded with and I could honestly be myself, discuss my interests, and it wasn't an outcast group of people. Then I moved. Up in northern Florida I've got a handful of friends that I laughed with and acted like a retard with for several years, only that group of friends if you mentioned certain topics they'd be like wtf or ewww. But I still had a good time. And then I moved. Now, down here on the West coast of Florida, I have a group of "friends" that I seldom laugh and act like a retard with and who I share pretty much no general interests with at all. By this point, I'd much like to go back to Georgia.
OR, I can play the trump card. I have friends all over the world. All over the United States, Canada, UK, Europe, Australia, islands off of Australia... And I can laugh and act like a retard with you all as much as I want. Love you guys. :]
So I have a lot of seriously, like... Emo display pictures for MSN that I used to use ALL the time but now I really don't use them because I don't really want to be judged as immature or beating myself up over something I can't have. Moving on!
When I moved back to mom's house in January my dad had taken my truck. MY TRUCK! ;-; Anyway, so mom and her boyfriend Mike bought a used car and Mike's been redoing the transmission and crap on it for moooonths now. Well, I'm happy to say that it's finally home, with the entire enterior cleaned, the exterior washed, waxed, and shined, new wiper blades, and a completely rebuilt transmission. Only to find out today that once we get the tags for it on Tuesday, it has to go back to the shop for more work. >< Well I'd rather it be fully fixed and running before I drive it anyway so I'll let Mike continue with it. But I really want it soon. I need a job and there's a CVS Pharmacy down the road that's hiring. I'm going to check it out tomorrow once mom gets off work.
So Becky texted me and she was all "Why you so upset?" and we talked about the whole friends and not talking thing and a bunch of crap so I'm feeling a little bit better about our almost-best-friendship that we've had sort of going on. I think we were closer DURING the schoolyear. But yeah. I don't trust her. But I love the girl to death. She gives me a break when I need it the most.
Speaking of girls I love, Amber I'm SO glad you're back I MISSED YOU SO MUCH! And now I'm not beating myself up over what could have happened. All that matters now is that you're safe and happy and you're back and I <3 you.
I think I'm done.
I have a lot of lady friends, right? A lot of lovesick lady friends, happy lady friends, lady friends in love, and then all the lady friends that come to me asking for advice when I can hardly fix my own. But I enjoy it so I don't mind. Here's the discussion: Things you wish you hadn't said, or things you wish you had said differently. A lot of us have felt that silence or tense moment after saying something that we honestly wonder if we should have said in the first place. It's all part of biting your tongue I think. Distance or not, even I feel tension in replies. Sometimes it sucks because I'll be sitting to myself thinking "What the hell am I thinkingggg?" Have I not learned by now to just, avoid throwing myself on a limb and keep things simple? Really.
Aaaaanyway, topic change! I've got a handful of friends in Georgia, people that I laughed with and acted like a retard with for several years, people who I bonded with and I could honestly be myself, discuss my interests, and it wasn't an outcast group of people. Then I moved. Up in northern Florida I've got a handful of friends that I laughed with and acted like a retard with for several years, only that group of friends if you mentioned certain topics they'd be like wtf or ewww. But I still had a good time. And then I moved. Now, down here on the West coast of Florida, I have a group of "friends" that I seldom laugh and act like a retard with and who I share pretty much no general interests with at all. By this point, I'd much like to go back to Georgia.
OR, I can play the trump card. I have friends all over the world. All over the United States, Canada, UK, Europe, Australia, islands off of Australia... And I can laugh and act like a retard with you all as much as I want. Love you guys. :]
So I have a lot of seriously, like... Emo display pictures for MSN that I used to use ALL the time but now I really don't use them because I don't really want to be judged as immature or beating myself up over something I can't have. Moving on!
When I moved back to mom's house in January my dad had taken my truck. MY TRUCK! ;-; Anyway, so mom and her boyfriend Mike bought a used car and Mike's been redoing the transmission and crap on it for moooonths now. Well, I'm happy to say that it's finally home, with the entire enterior cleaned, the exterior washed, waxed, and shined, new wiper blades, and a completely rebuilt transmission. Only to find out today that once we get the tags for it on Tuesday, it has to go back to the shop for more work. >< Well I'd rather it be fully fixed and running before I drive it anyway so I'll let Mike continue with it. But I really want it soon. I need a job and there's a CVS Pharmacy down the road that's hiring. I'm going to check it out tomorrow once mom gets off work.
So Becky texted me and she was all "Why you so upset?" and we talked about the whole friends and not talking thing and a bunch of crap so I'm feeling a little bit better about our almost-best-friendship that we've had sort of going on. I think we were closer DURING the schoolyear. But yeah. I don't trust her. But I love the girl to death. She gives me a break when I need it the most.
Speaking of girls I love, Amber I'm SO glad you're back I MISSED YOU SO MUCH! And now I'm not beating myself up over what could have happened. All that matters now is that you're safe and happy and you're back and I <3 you.
I think I'm done.
