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And now it's gone. I've screwed up once again. Well, I don't belong and it's been proven. I won't come back. I've been betrayed, now what? I'm supposed to sulk and everything, right? It's an option. Or I can die, yet another option but still no. Ruin your life? Please, that's even worse. Am I crazy? To you maybe. To myself, well I never go back on what I say when I'm angry. What about you? Say things that make me feel like s**t when really they don't, try to get back at me, Hmm, what else? Oh, that's right, Assume. You assume as well. Then what? You get angry and run off to who ever. You know who I run off to? The people who are willing to help me. Not the people who you think I'm asking "Oh, can you please tell him to F-U-C-K O-F-F?" I don't do s**t like that. People as in your Mom and Tim. They sure as hell understand it better than you. I'm done with having to act like your pet. I'm done with listening to your lies just so it seems like it's okay to you so you can go off to have sex with someone you said you weren't happy with, then come back saying emotions get in the ******** way. Thats straight up bullshit and you know it. I'm not oblivious to what you're doing. I sure as hell can figure out you just lost your virginity from simple answers. I know when I've been played. I know when I've been used. I know when to love. You have what you need with her. I, on the other hand, am just the "other". Not anymore. I'm the one they run to. I'm the one that listens to what they say to me. I'm the one they show their true selves. And every time they tell me I should've done more...they realize they are saying the wrong thing...and also they are talking to the wrong person. Listen to them for once. Look at them now. They will never be what...what you first wanted them to be. I am no longer their mom now. I am no longer related to them. And I am no longer your pet. Have fun for now, but one day they'll ask about this, they'll ask about your past, and when you answer them, it better not be a ******** lie. Have fun calling me whatever you want. I go through it already why not add another.
 Andromeda Scarlet · Sun Mar 07, 2010 @ 10:42pm · 0 Comments |
