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Please let the days go by faster!
Right now I'm going out of my freaking mind. It's 1pm Saturday afternoon and I still have to make it through the rest of today, Sunday, Monday, and then hopefully James will be back someday on Tuesday! I really hope, because if it's any longer than that, I'm going to go insane and they'll have to put me an a psych ward. I feel like I can't breathe anymore, and I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. And then last night, I couldn't sleep. I kept having this dream that they came home last night, and that they saw me sleeping in his bed upstairs and decided to just let be and sleep. But then I would wake up and realize it was just a dream so I would turn around and fall back asleep. But then I would start dreaming that I was just falling... falling... falling down to nothing and James was at the top trying to reach for me and I tried to grab his hand, but he was to far away and I would start screaming, and I would wake up again. And it went like that all night long. crying
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