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Here's somethign that means SOOOOOO much to me. Mostly because I've been ridiculed for it. That's right kiddies, I'm talking about homosexuals(not to be with homosexticales, which are pretty close!) and the religious and self-rightous bastards that think that it's okay to badmouth us.

As you may or my not know, I am a lesbian. And I'm happy to be. My girlfriend and I have been dating for almost 4 years now, and we fully intend on living together and, should fate allow it, get married and have a family. Yes. Even homosexuals dream of having a family. Take THAT and suck it, bastards.

Like I said before, there are 2 types of bashers to the LGBT community. There's the religious groups who try and use quotes from the bible to say that homosexuality is wrong and we're all going to hell for it. Then there's the group who feel the need to purge gays from the world and kill them. Yes. I said killed. Don't think this doesn't happen; it happens just as much to us as it did the blacks. I don't mind people having thier own opinions. Just for ******** sake, DON'T FORCE THEM ON ME. Jesus ********, I do not tolorate complete unintelligent assholes.

You may notice I used the word "try" when I described what the first group does. "...try to use quotes from the bible to say homosexuality is wrong and we're all going to hell for it." Yeah, no. These people are wrong. They are taking ONE phrase and using it to thier advantage, not the ENTIRE message. Think God won't punish you for manipulating his word, you little shits?! Don't get me wrong, guys; I'm all for religion. if it's what makes you happy and gives you faith, more power to you. I just believe that organized religion is a piece of s**t, and manipulates everything in the name of humanity's greed. And yes, I have met some religious people who were very accepting; I'm not saying all religious individuals are assholes, but a lot of the homophobic assholes ARE religious. And for those of you who don't beleive about what THIS paragraph has said, check this out: http://www.soulforce.org/article/homosexuality-bible-gay-christian

Alright, now for the assholes that REALLY make my blood boil. The people who don't use religion as a basis. They just hate. HATEHATEHATE. Andhate breeds more hate, I know. So I'm going to keep this section breif, for my own sake. If you hate gays just because they are "unnatural" then you need to take a step back. Did y'all know red hair isn't "natural"? Blue eyes aren't "natural"? they're genetic mutations. Yes. Mutations. meaning they aren't supposed to happen. So before you rip on us for being "unnatural" think about that for a minute.

Now, I will admit. There are more accepting people I have come across than haters. People I thought would hate me turned out to be understanding and even had gay family members before I came out. This makes me SO happy, you don't even know.

But as it stands, I get asked a lot why I'm a lesbian or "whats wrong" with me. In short, nothing is wrong with me. But here is an essay I wrote yesterday on the topic that explains everything:

"Why am I a Lesbian? This is a question I have been asked before. "Why are you a lesbian?" "How can you like girls?" "What's wrong with guys?"

You're about to learn some things about my history, and explaining the "Why" of my lesbianism. If you don't want to know, just click the x button.

There's a debate about whether homosexuality is something you're born with, or if it's a choice. Some will argue it is the work of the devil. Those of the LGBT community argue, "Why would we choose to be ridiculed?" As for me, I believe it is a number of things: biology, and circumstance. Circumstances in life shape our decisions, whether conciously or not.

When I was 3, my biological father left me. I didn't even know what he looked like until I was 15. the closest to a father figure I had was my grandfather and my uncle. When I was 8, my mother married a man who started out great. once I hit my teens, he became verbally and emotionally hurtful. I wanted to die. My mom and this man argued a lot. He gave us the silent treatment, even for things beyond our control.

My mom and I left him when I was 15. She divorced him a few months later, while dating another man who would come to adopt me. Overall, he's a creep. I've caught him watching porn regularly, and he's always wanting to talk about sex with me. I have found my USED panties in his bed, and he denied anything. He has, apparently, made advances toward my friends.

Don't get me wrong. I have tried dating boys before. I dated 4 different guys. I've dated 2 girls. The boys were more like my brothers, and I was uncomfortable. The first girl was to into PDA at the time, and I wasn't ready. The second…

The second girl I dated, I'm still with. It'll be 4 years this February. And I have never been happier.

So, again. Why am I a lesbian? Because I have never seen a healthy relationship between a man and a woman. because, frankly, Peni freak me the ******** out, and gross me out. Because I have received more affection from a girl than a guy.

How can I like girls? Easy—I just do. It's natural for me. They're soft and all curves. I know girls can be bitches just as much as guys can be dicks, but…I have only had one bad experiance with a girl.

What's wrong with guys? Nothing. I just don't like them."

So there you have it. All my homosexual beliefs rolled into one easy to read package.