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I really haven't felt like posting much of anything in here. After all, the world itself doesn't need to know what's happening in my life. That's only for the people I choose to include in it.
Buuuut... I kinda really need to ramble right now to let off some steam...

Argh. The past couple of days... well, actually ever since Friday night I've been stressed out a lot. Which is partially due to my lack of sleep because of a certain brother in the room next to mine. >.<; But eh. Good criminey, I just realized Friday was five days ago and I can barely recall anything within that time period with the small exception of a phone call and feeling sick.
Speaking of sick, today I felt like puking when I got home. Damn fast food restaurants. Bleh. I want my mom to come home now, I'm tired of eating out. Today was the third time I ate at either Jack in the Box or McDonalds. I want a good salad that I know who handled it and if it really was washed... and I want a hug too... >.<; Lately I've either been stuck in a headlock or jumping at the slightest movement by my brother. Haha. I've forgotten what it's been like not having someone around to fight with. I'm such a weakling now... bah.
Ohhh.... to top things off, no one in this house had cut me any slack this weekend... "Oh, you're a lazy slob... clean the kitchen up or else I won't let you go to the mall..." I really wanted to yell back and point out that I alone cleaned the entire house while my dad was gone to work, and that my brother and his girlfriend didn't help a bit even though they were the main cause of the mess. Gah! But I didn't yell, couldn't... I need to go to the mall this weekend badly... because if I can't now, there's no way in Hell that I can go and buy that shirt next week before I have to send it and get it there on time. ARGH. Damnit. Well, I guess that wasn't too bad considering the fact since I did shut up and ended up not get called some pretty bad names. Gah. I'm such a hypocrite, I use profane langauge, yet I can't stand it when my own dad is screaming it across the house or using it basically every other word when he's pissed?

Well, so that pretty much sums up the bad things... but I really shouldn't complain. But on the whole, I kinda really love my life right now despite a couple of things. Wait, I guess more than a couple of things but eh. I guess I nearly did want to kill our tuba player earlier when I went back in the restaruant... What the hell is it with people telling and trying to lecture me about relationships today? It's my own damn choice, and I don't want to hear it from them. Gah. Especially not from my best friend since kindergarten... I know she cares and all, but the thing is... I'm happy. Can she not see that? No, I know she can, but she's probably thinking "Oh, you can do better than that... you're settling for second best, aren't you? Afraid you can't find someone near us, eh?" I probably would have ended up having her pissed and upset with me if I had said what I thought... or even worse losing my best friend. Argh. But I know when to shut up surprisingly. It seems I have no friends who understand this.

But I wish they did...

Okay. I should stop this now. So I guess this will be my last entry for quite a while. And as I reread it, it's kinda really depressing. Sorry, really stressed right now with all these band concert events lately. Doesn't help much to be the end of the month either.

This has been your irregular journal entry with Andrea, make it a great day Gaia...
(Ohh lord, I really need to stop acting so much like the morning announcer I am. >.<; Such a nerd... argh.)