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So today we had two band competitions, and they were our last. Thank you! No more drama! But I have a good feeling about next year. We got second place, but heres something in the day that didn't make me feel so awesome.
So, I hate pressure, I absoulutely hate it. And here I am doing the second song, and the guy is like "You are to early, it is 5 out six." Well he never said the name, and he had been yelling at a girl behind me, earlier so, I had no idea :/ We start doing it again and it stopped everthing, got into my face and screamed at me.
He said to me,
Him-"You are exactly two counts before everyone else, do you know why?"
Me-*verge of tears*(Cause I've been on the erge of tears all week) Cause I didn't count. (I barely managed)
Him-"Exactly just count and you will get it my dear."
And then he walked off. And we started again and I was shaking now. And so we came to the part again and he stopped everything and yelled count! And all I could do was like barely look at him, cause I don't want him to see my eyes I didn't know how they looked. So he is super mad at me at this point. And he asked if I cared, and I nodded yeah. And he said that it seems like I don't and if I don't I don't have to perform. And I love colorguard, so hearing it was like what?! You can't come to a couple practices and say crap like that, I don't care who you are, but you aren't the coach anymore d: So I am pissed but on the verge of tears, cause anger and sadness. "I do care!" I said as loudly as I could and he goes "Good, now go again." I wanted to cry, so when we were rolling flags and everyone was consolling me, I was tearing up, biting my lip. Just trying not to let anyone see me. So that happened. And it was so hard on that competition to do anything, cause I was so afraid of messing up, and webber yelling at me later. I was shaking almost, I went to perform in an important place feeling like a load of crud cause he is a douche.
And apparently, I fell asleep on my panda pillow pet and I managed to get the whole bus to aw at me. Lol. Gotta shower man ><