Is suicide the only way out?
I can't let my feelings out in front of my friends at school cause they would most likely think I have lost it. So I will jsut type it cause you who are reading this can not see the expression of my face. My friend Damien's sister called my two days ago and told me that he had committed suicide, Trisha is really serious person, So I knew she wasn't lieing. Damien's mom beats both of them and the day before he committed suicide, she abused him both metally and physicaly, way more than she normaly does. and it just drove him to the end. He had done nothing but try to make his mom happy, hoping that she would just stop, but it never worked, she just kept on. Why did he think suicide was the only way out?! I don't get it. A couple days before this happened he told me that he couldn't take it anymore and that he was going to commit suicide. I didn't really belive him, but I still asked him not to. He just smiled and said deaths cold kiss is better than this hell. I started to belive him more and pleaded with him to find another way, I just got over a dear family members death and I didn't think I could deal with another. I told him that we could run away together, but he just smiled again, why did he have to keep smileing like we were talking about some stupid thig Jodi and I had done at the mall!Damien just said, still smiling that their was no other way and that he wouldn't run away. He left and I never saw him again. I totaly broke down when I heard the news. My friends think suicide is a cowards way out, I don't think so, being able to pull a knife across your wrists and then dealing with the pain untill everything goes numb... I would never be able to do it. I really wish I had tried hardy to stop him. The pain of it just weighs me down, so that I can't eat or sleep. My doctor now has me on pills, i don't know what to do, I've gone through two deaths that were less than 3 months apart. Trisha thinks that my band should play a song at his funeral. But I don't think I can do it cause it just won't be right without Damien playing along with us. Why did he think suicide was the only way out!
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and you can tell me anything like how you feel or whats wrong and stuff. i couldnt tell you when i was in britanys closet and nikkis house beccause it Was about you and nikki. but that is completely and totally differant. i have to go now though.
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