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Well, I have not written in here for awhile, so I shall tonight. After all, I'm bored and possibly a little tired, so this will occupy my time perfectly. Here are my rants!

School starts in a few weeks, which I honestly don't know what to think. I'll be starting highschool, and after that tour they gave us at the end of the 8th grade, I'm not feeling to positive about the way the guys were looking at me. But that's okay. Last year I didn't have someone by my side. Granted, I always told everyone I was taken, but this time I really am, and it was worth waiting endless years for. Well, the years weren't endless.. They were filled with great times and happiness.

I met him almost 5 years ago. Five years this christmas I think. I might be a year ahead. *shrugs* Either way, I met him some time ago when I met everyone else I currently talk to here. Sure, he wasn't sincere towards me the first year and a half. We were still on the whole "Sephiroth Kills Aeris" thing. But about a year later we grew out of it and became quite good friends. Best friends, mind you. Okay, maybe more than best friends. xp It felt that way, even if it wasn't entirely true. I always told everyone at school that I was taken by another. Him and I, we've helped each other throughout the years. Where would we be without each other? My friends understood how much I was in love.

On October 14th, 2004, I asked him out for the first time. I wasn't given a blunt no in reply, but he explained, and I understood. I was still my cheerful self and I moved on, still by his side.
On October 14th, 2005, I asked yet again. THis time, I was given a blunt reply. It hurt more than I expected. I actually lost sleep over it, and that is not like me a bit.
I didn't plan on asking October 14th, 2006. I didn't want to hear another negative reaction. I guess I wasn't ready to hear it.
Asking again wasn't needed. I was beaten to it, so to say. He asked me on 13/07/06. It shocked everyone! Stiina, Fallen, Tina... I think they were all dancing with me. Oh how wonderful it was... And still to this day, about a week later... I'm still stunned. But happy all the same. More than happy. 3nodding We know how relationships are, and we both think on the same line. We both understand eachother and what we've both been through... But don't worry. No one can hurt us anymore. heart

A few years ago when I had to change schools, I met someone. We didn't get to become good friends until I got back from Florida the next year. And he became my best friend. But, he's so jealous, and he doesn't like other guys with me. Just like how an older brother is. I respect his decisions. I just wish that he could respect mine. cry That day, everyone was cheering me on and giving me congrats. He... seemed annoyed, if not a little upset and mad. He more or less said that I didn't know who I was with.. Who he was, what he was like... But after a 5 year friendship, I know what I am doing. I just wish... he would understand, and my friendship with him would go back to normal. I worry about him sometimes. But he is my best friend, and I couldn't ask for anyone else. Maybe one he will understand.
Thank you for being here, Alex. Sometimes we may not get along, sometimes we can't stand eachother. But other times we are inseperable. It'll be great having all of our classes together in highschool, won't it? So if we get lost, we'll get lost together. Hey, we can even take turns sleeping in class and filling each other in later! xd We'll definately have fun... No matter what happens, we'll always be here for eachother. Let's have a fun time in highschool. 3nodding

Kudos to:
{Ellis, my love. heart }
{Mae, Stiina, Tina, Shinta, Selene, Fae, Mara, Fire, and Karu, the girls that have stuck with me and the ones that cheered me on when I said that I finally had the one I love.}
{Ryan, Zhou, Edge, and all the other guys of the Hangout that did not ditch me when I said I was going to be the new owner.}
{Alex, Britani, and Tyler, my three closest friends in the group of 7. }
{Can't forget the two people that cause Ellis trouble, aparentally. xd Conrad and Shannon, mah other brother and sister.}
{Last but not least, my favourite clown, Matt. Can't forget Matt. He's an unforgettable friend. One person reckoned to be with. Hope to see ya this winter Mattie. 3nodding }

You all make life worth living. You guys rock!

heart ~Ellis & Ashley~ heart
Officially together on 13/07/06